This page explains the difference between same-sex feelings, unwanted intrusive thoughts, and repeated porn or erotic-story habits. It also covers how Islamic teachings distinguish feelings from actions, religious guilt, anxiety, and finding non-judgmental support in Pakistan.
I am trying to stay closer to Allah and stop watching unwanted videos, but I keep asking AI to create gay romantic stories and feel trapped in the loop. I am asking why this is haram when feelings about love seem personal, and the conflict leaves me anxious and sad.
That loop can feel trapping, especially when every same-sex thought leads to fear, checking, and more guilt. You are not broken. A thought is not an action, and the first aim is not to defeat the thought but to stop feeding the loop.
We are a mental-health service and do not give religious rulings. For that side of it, a scholar or imam aap trusts—someone discreet and compassionate—is the right person to ask.
Try two practical things:
Stress, loneliness, boredom, secrecy, and poor sleep can all make the loop louder, so protect your routine where possible. Because this guilt is affecting your peace, speak with a qualified mental-health professional who can help with the guilt, secrecy, and rumination—not try to change who you are. You can find one at depression.pk/find-help, and our team is here in the chat whenever you need to talk.
If this ever turns into thoughts of harming yourself or not wanting to live, tell our team now in this chat.
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