Why Asking Your Dad for Money Feels Impossible

Asking your father for money is hard because money in a household like this is never just money. It gets tangled with approval, independence, and whether he thinks your choices are worth anything. When he shouts, it doesn’t mean your needs are wrong — it means he has his own fear about money and about where your course is leading. That still hurts, though. It is genuinely hard to ask.

What is really happening

Your father’s anger is mostly about control and worry, not about you as a person. He hears “fashion course” and sees something risky and expensive. He may also feel pressure as the person expected to pay for everything. That doesn’t excuse the shouting, but it explains why every request turns into a fight.

At the same time, your sister promised to support you and then lost her job. That was not your fault, but it left you holding the promise. So now you are not just asking for money — you are asking after a promise broke, and that makes you feel like a burden. You are not a burden. You are in a difficult season.

What you can do now

The most urgent thing is to stop the fines from growing. Even if you can’t buy supplies yet, go to college and speak to your teacher once. Say you are struggling. Teachers often help if they see you are serious.

• Go to college even without supplies. Being present matters more than having perfect materials.
• Ask the office about an installment plan or a concession for course purchases. Many colleges quietly allow this.
• Ask your father for small amounts, not the whole bill. “Just bus fare” is easier to hear than “paints and sketchbooks.”
• Ask your sister to sit with you when you talk to him. A second voice changes the conversation.
• Keep looking for clients in local places — friends, relatives, shops, wedding photographers. Your first income will come from someone who already knows you.

About the portrait commissions: AI art is cheap, but people still want a real, handmade portrait for a wedding, a birthday, a memory. Sell it as something AI cannot give — a personal, human gift. And your video editing skill will find clients too, but it takes time. The skill is already there. The situation is what needs time.

You are not wrong for needing money. You want independence, and that desire is already working inside you. For now, take the smallest step — get yourself back to college, stop the fines, and ask for one small thing at a time. It will not stay this way.