Dad Cursed Me and Told Me to Hang Myself During a Panic Attack

That is genuinely hard. A parent saying something like that, especially when you are already drowning in a panic attack, is a wound that cuts deeper than almost anything else. It is not your fault, and it does not mean you deserve to die. Your father said something cruel and wrong. The panic attack made you vulnerable, and instead of help you got hurt. That is a terrible thing to have happen, and it makes sense that you are questioning everything right now.

What you can do right now

• Get yourself to a safe place — a room you can close the door on, or even just a corner where you can sit and breathe. You do not have to face him again until you are steadier.
• Remind yourself of one fact: his words say something about his own anger or helplessness, not about your worth. A person having a panic attack needs care, not curses. You deserved care.
• Call or message someone who actually sees you — a friend, a cousin, a teacher you trust. Tell them what happened and that you just need to hear a kind voice for a few minutes. Do not sit alone with this.

What this means for the bigger picture

Living with a parent who says things like that is exhausting and confusing. You love him, and he hurt you. Both things can be true at once. But you are not obligated to absorb that kind of cruelty. Over time, you may need to find ways to protect yourself emotionally — keeping conversations short, having an exit plan when you feel a panic attack coming, or eventually talking to a therapist about how to set boundaries in a family where that is hard.

For now, the only thing that matters is that you are still here. You survived the attack and you survived his words. That takes something real. You do not have to figure out the rest of your life tonight — just get through the next hour. Drink water. Put on music. Let yourself cry if it comes. And if you want to talk it through with someone who will not judge, Zara is here on the site whenever you need.